Another nice one....
fOr mOmEnT LaSts fOr sEcOnDs bUt mEmOrIeS LiVeS oN fOrEvEr...
Thursday, July 29, 2004
Tuesday, July 27, 2004
TireD TiReD tIReD~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am freaking tired now. No energy to do anything. Whole body aching. Woke up at 0530 hr today to go to Jurong Camp for the Tiger Trail 2004 Orientation Run. Started running at about 0700 hr. The running route is the worst kind of terrain you can imagine. Undulating terrain with a lot of big rocks, steep slopes any many more. The ojective of the competition is to run from the start point to the various hills at the live firing area to get points. Each hill have points allocated to it, based on the distance and difficulty. Today is just the orientation run to get used to the route.
We ran about 8km from the start point to the end point. Along the way, we ran up the hills to take a look at the checkpoints. That adds up to about 10km. When we reach the end point, boss discovered that we missed 2 checkpoints, so we ran another 4km back to the checkpoints to check it out!!!!! By the end of the whole orientatio, we already ran about 14km... dying... Oh yar, did I also mention that we have to do all that in 2hours? ArGh~! I don't wanna run~!
Doing duty again as usual. Gonna sleep liao lah... too tired. No energy to think now... haha...
We ran about 8km from the start point to the end point. Along the way, we ran up the hills to take a look at the checkpoints. That adds up to about 10km. When we reach the end point, boss discovered that we missed 2 checkpoints, so we ran another 4km back to the checkpoints to check it out!!!!! By the end of the whole orientatio, we already ran about 14km... dying... Oh yar, did I also mention that we have to do all that in 2hours? ArGh~! I don't wanna run~!
Doing duty again as usual. Gonna sleep liao lah... too tired. No energy to think now... haha...
Monday, July 26, 2004
Lesson 2.02
Had my lesson again today. Did the S-course and Crank-course. Haha... the S-course is very fun and interesting~! At first its kinda scary... was going real slow.... steady but no use.. gotta clear that crap in 11sec.... Got scolded by the instructor a few times and was kinda pissed off. The instructor today was not a very nice guy. The moment he came, he showed us the kind of "I'm gonna fail you" kinda face. That's probably what motivated me to go all out. Don't care so much... just rev only... haha... Surprisingly I did quite well... was going so fast until the instructor tell me to relax... haha... Even asked me to be the demonstrator for the other 3 guys.
Going to run 16km tomorrow... gotta sleep early... sianz.... everyday also run....
Going to run 16km tomorrow... gotta sleep early... sianz.... everyday also run....
Sunday, July 25, 2004
BiKez dAy....
Went on a motorbike viewing spree today. Brought Jas to see the new Phantom at Boon Siew. Too bad the shop was close on Sunday, so we could only view it from outside. Ended up in the shop selling toilet furnitures. Haha... Jas is so interested in all the jacuzzi bathtubs. To tell the truth, the jacuzzi bathtubs are really cool and interesting. But its freaking expensive too. About 5k for a nice one of decent size. I'll definitely wanna install one in my house next time... hehe... Hang around there for a while before heading down to Minerva to see the Cagiva Raptor. Kinda lost our way, but with Jas as the navigator, it isn't long before we get on track. Well, the shop is closed as usual. So we ended up viewing it from outside again.... Jas don't like the bike, cuz it don't have a big enough space for her to sit... haha... But I still think the bike is damn cool. Wonder why all the bike shops are close on Sunday....
Went to town to meet Din, Hanah and Martin. Din wanted to eat muddy mud pie at coffee club. So I shared one with Jas too. That's our favourite dessert. Its very sinful but who cares.... haha... maybe that explains why I am having a sore throat now. Martin went off to buy his new handphone, Sony Ericsson K700i. That rich bugger. Still dare to tell us he got no money. Bought 3 Nike T-shirts worth almost 100 bucks, then now buying a new HP which cost almost 600 bucks. No money... yar right... haha. We don't really want to stand there and wait for him so we went to Hereen to view the new Piaggio X8. Its a very cool bike too. Lots of storage space and its comfortable. But its not my kind of bike. Too uncle already lah.. I'm still young... haha... Think I am ultimately going to get the Phantom lahz...
Went to town to meet Din, Hanah and Martin. Din wanted to eat muddy mud pie at coffee club. So I shared one with Jas too. That's our favourite dessert. Its very sinful but who cares.... haha... maybe that explains why I am having a sore throat now. Martin went off to buy his new handphone, Sony Ericsson K700i. That rich bugger. Still dare to tell us he got no money. Bought 3 Nike T-shirts worth almost 100 bucks, then now buying a new HP which cost almost 600 bucks. No money... yar right... haha. We don't really want to stand there and wait for him so we went to Hereen to view the new Piaggio X8. Its a very cool bike too. Lots of storage space and its comfortable. But its not my kind of bike. Too uncle already lah.. I'm still young... haha... Think I am ultimately going to get the Phantom lahz...
Saturday, July 24, 2004
4 Simple (but Surprising) Ways Men Express their Love
Just read this from a website... think its freaking true... well at least for me. All girls should read this. I believe a lot of girls would find this information very useful. For your information. Bottom line.. Don't judge things by the surface. Look Deeper.
4 Simple (but Surprising) Ways Men Express their Love:
1. Simply saying "I Love You"
Actually, saying these three words is a huge step for some men. That's because it means a lot more than simply expressing a feeling. For some it feels like a life commitment, for others it is fraught with danger.
"When I say I love you," said Steve, "I feel like I'm taking my life in my hands and giving it to her. It's scary. I've got to really trust her and know she won't throw my love away in order to actually say the words to her." In this case, the fear of rejection comes up strongly. Rejection is enormously painful for most men, and saying "I love you" can be an invitation to be hurt. Most men must feel very secure in the relationship and in the woman's feelings for him before he'll dare say those words.
For others, saying "I love you" means, "I'm offering a commitment. I'm going to be here to do things for you." For many men, love is expressed through action, so these words are a promise of what is to follow. Simply by saying these words they feel they are agreeing to be there, to give to her and support her. If they don't do it, they'll feel like a heel.
When some men say "I love you," it means "I'm not leaving" or "I'll always be faithful." This can be very scary for some men. They feel the words themselves are a promise, and if the promise is broken, they will suffer as well. Men don't want to break their promises to you. Most want to be able to follow through and give you what they want. In the end, they just want you to feel good about them -- and to feel good about themselves as well.
2. Offering tokens of affections
There are many different kinds of gifts a man can give. The obvious ones include those wrapped in packages, candy, flowers and special notes. But there are others that a woman may or may not be aware of. For example, for some men, giving their time to you is a gift. When they spend more time with you, and less with family and friends, this is their way of saying that they love you. They are choosing to be with you.
Some other men choose other gifts. Whether your partner stands up for you during a difficult time, goes with you to visit your family, does little jobs for you, attends important functions with you, puts you first in his thoughts or plans trips, dates or outings, the message is the same. He loves you. If this sounds like your man, keep in mind he, like many men, may not be comfortable with expressing his feelings directly, so these behaviors are indicators that he cares a great deal. The trick to understanding a guy like this lies in realizing two things: These actions are being generated out of love, and he expects you to know that.
3. PDA (Physical Display of Affections)
Affection can mean anything from handholding to lovemaking. In fact, some men can most easily express their feelings during lovemaking. That's because after being intimate they feel as though they've loved you, and often feel loved as well. The physical contact breaks down barriers and provides a feeling of closeness that cannot be so easily be obtained in another manner for them.
This can be a complex area, because sex can mean so many different things to different individuals. Most women need affection and foreplay as well as the sex because this is what makes them feel loved. Some women even require hearing words of love spoken during this time as well. So when a man is open, giving and affectionate with a woman on an ongoing basis, it is often his way of expressing love. For him, love means meeting her needs and having his needs met as well.
Still other men use sexuality to avoid or cover up areas in the relationship that might be difficult. They feel that if the sex is good, everything else will fall into place. Usually, when the sex is reluctant, or not happening, it is an indicator that something is missing emotionally, or that conflict exists in the relationship. Sex is a sensitive barometer to what's going on in all aspects of one's life.
4. Introducing you to his family
Another way of saying "I love you" is taking you home to meet the family and close, meaningful friends. This is often an indicator that the man has deeper feelings for you. Not only does it say that that he's proud of you, but he wants to connect you with the people who mean the most to him. He wants you to care about them, and for them to care about you as well. This is a sure sign that intimacy and love are increasing for him, and that you are becoming a significant part of his life. Some women complain a great deal about not having met the family and being kept separate and apart. When this goes on for too long in a relationship, it can be a sign that the depth of his feelings for you, and his involvement, are lacking.
Some men compartmentalize relationships. They have someone for dating, someone for sex, someone else for the kind of love that leads to marriage. By being aware of the people in his life that he introduces you to and includes you with, you can get a good idea of how he operates in this area. Does he want you in all parts of his life, or is this a limited relationship? Love, in the deepest sense, includes sharing all parts of ourselves with another.
It is helpful to keep a little journal of your relationship. So many acts and expressions of love go unnoticed and unfelt, because we simply get used to them or become too busy to stop and take note -- or to stop and say thank-you. Take a few minutes each evening to note what you received that day, and also what you gave. Write it down. Be specific. List everything, like phone calls, kind words, a surprise visit, etc. You'll be amazed when you look back and realize all the ways your partner is giving to you. Plus, it'll help you find new ways to give back to him.
4 Simple (but Surprising) Ways Men Express their Love:
1. Simply saying "I Love You"
Actually, saying these three words is a huge step for some men. That's because it means a lot more than simply expressing a feeling. For some it feels like a life commitment, for others it is fraught with danger.
"When I say I love you," said Steve, "I feel like I'm taking my life in my hands and giving it to her. It's scary. I've got to really trust her and know she won't throw my love away in order to actually say the words to her." In this case, the fear of rejection comes up strongly. Rejection is enormously painful for most men, and saying "I love you" can be an invitation to be hurt. Most men must feel very secure in the relationship and in the woman's feelings for him before he'll dare say those words.
For others, saying "I love you" means, "I'm offering a commitment. I'm going to be here to do things for you." For many men, love is expressed through action, so these words are a promise of what is to follow. Simply by saying these words they feel they are agreeing to be there, to give to her and support her. If they don't do it, they'll feel like a heel.
When some men say "I love you," it means "I'm not leaving" or "I'll always be faithful." This can be very scary for some men. They feel the words themselves are a promise, and if the promise is broken, they will suffer as well. Men don't want to break their promises to you. Most want to be able to follow through and give you what they want. In the end, they just want you to feel good about them -- and to feel good about themselves as well.
2. Offering tokens of affections
There are many different kinds of gifts a man can give. The obvious ones include those wrapped in packages, candy, flowers and special notes. But there are others that a woman may or may not be aware of. For example, for some men, giving their time to you is a gift. When they spend more time with you, and less with family and friends, this is their way of saying that they love you. They are choosing to be with you.
Some other men choose other gifts. Whether your partner stands up for you during a difficult time, goes with you to visit your family, does little jobs for you, attends important functions with you, puts you first in his thoughts or plans trips, dates or outings, the message is the same. He loves you. If this sounds like your man, keep in mind he, like many men, may not be comfortable with expressing his feelings directly, so these behaviors are indicators that he cares a great deal. The trick to understanding a guy like this lies in realizing two things: These actions are being generated out of love, and he expects you to know that.
3. PDA (Physical Display of Affections)
Affection can mean anything from handholding to lovemaking. In fact, some men can most easily express their feelings during lovemaking. That's because after being intimate they feel as though they've loved you, and often feel loved as well. The physical contact breaks down barriers and provides a feeling of closeness that cannot be so easily be obtained in another manner for them.
This can be a complex area, because sex can mean so many different things to different individuals. Most women need affection and foreplay as well as the sex because this is what makes them feel loved. Some women even require hearing words of love spoken during this time as well. So when a man is open, giving and affectionate with a woman on an ongoing basis, it is often his way of expressing love. For him, love means meeting her needs and having his needs met as well.
Still other men use sexuality to avoid or cover up areas in the relationship that might be difficult. They feel that if the sex is good, everything else will fall into place. Usually, when the sex is reluctant, or not happening, it is an indicator that something is missing emotionally, or that conflict exists in the relationship. Sex is a sensitive barometer to what's going on in all aspects of one's life.
4. Introducing you to his family
Another way of saying "I love you" is taking you home to meet the family and close, meaningful friends. This is often an indicator that the man has deeper feelings for you. Not only does it say that that he's proud of you, but he wants to connect you with the people who mean the most to him. He wants you to care about them, and for them to care about you as well. This is a sure sign that intimacy and love are increasing for him, and that you are becoming a significant part of his life. Some women complain a great deal about not having met the family and being kept separate and apart. When this goes on for too long in a relationship, it can be a sign that the depth of his feelings for you, and his involvement, are lacking.
Some men compartmentalize relationships. They have someone for dating, someone for sex, someone else for the kind of love that leads to marriage. By being aware of the people in his life that he introduces you to and includes you with, you can get a good idea of how he operates in this area. Does he want you in all parts of his life, or is this a limited relationship? Love, in the deepest sense, includes sharing all parts of ourselves with another.
It is helpful to keep a little journal of your relationship. So many acts and expressions of love go unnoticed and unfelt, because we simply get used to them or become too busy to stop and take note -- or to stop and say thank-you. Take a few minutes each evening to note what you received that day, and also what you gave. Write it down. Be specific. List everything, like phone calls, kind words, a surprise visit, etc. You'll be amazed when you look back and realize all the ways your partner is giving to you. Plus, it'll help you find new ways to give back to him.
Nice...
We are the music makers,
And we are the dreamers of dreams,
Wandering by lone sea breakers,
And sitting by desolate streams.
World-losers and world-forsakers,
On whom the pale moon gleams:
Yet we are the movers and shakers
Of the world forever, it seems.
-Arthur O'Shaughnessy.
And we are the dreamers of dreams,
Wandering by lone sea breakers,
And sitting by desolate streams.
World-losers and world-forsakers,
On whom the pale moon gleams:
Yet we are the movers and shakers
Of the world forever, it seems.
-Arthur O'Shaughnessy.
my WiShLiSt
Things I wanna Buy/ Do/ Achieve:
1. Cagiva Raptor 125 or Phantom 200 (for 2B)
2. Honda CB400 V-tec III Yellow Body with Gold Rim (for 2A) - that's the ultimate. I just love this bike~!
3. Crumpler bag for myself and Jas
4. New wallet
5. New shoes
6. Get my 2B by October
All helps by all personnel are welcomed. If you want to buy me the cagiva, get me the red one. Phantom, get me the black one.... hahahaha...
1. Cagiva Raptor 125 or Phantom 200 (for 2B)
2. Honda CB400 V-tec III Yellow Body with Gold Rim (for 2A) - that's the ultimate. I just love this bike~!
3. Crumpler bag for myself and Jas
4. New wallet
5. New shoes
6. Get my 2B by October
All helps by all personnel are welcomed. If you want to buy me the cagiva, get me the red one. Phantom, get me the black one.... hahahaha...
Doing duty again....
Freaking sianz today... stuck in camp to do duty... Its a Saturday. No one is around. sighz... next tuesday gotta do duty again... Gonna kill Weiyi liao... schedule so many duties for me next month. Good and bad actually. Bad because its is very siong to do so many duties in a month. Good... its means next month not my problem anymore... hahaha... alright fine, I know that's lame. But anyway, I am just trying to entertain myself while typing this crap in the middle of nowhere.
Had a rather eventful day. Woke up early in the morning to a nice thunderstorm. I was drenched before I could even reach my car. Good start to day. Have some water splashing on you early in the morning will make you wake up... haha... Reach camp just in time to take over duty from Andrew. Happily wanted to go to the canteen for breakfast then found out that ALL the canteens in camp are closed. Good. Now I am wide awake with nothing to eat. Luckily there's some leftover cakes in office. No choice. Just stuff everything inside my mouth, drank lots of water, hoping that the cake will somehow expand in my stomach and fill me up. Alright I know it doesn't work this way. Just wanna try my luck, can? haha...
Played some games on my laptop in my office until 12pm then went for lunch. The cookhouse auntie super nice. Filled up my whole plate with food... haha.. okie, the fact is that there's no one else eating, that's why she gave me everything... sighz... not bad lahz.. have the WHOLE cookhouse to myself, one auntie serving me, 4 set of television to watch and lots of tables and chairs to choose from... After lunch, straight to the bunk and sleep until 5pm. Went to cookhouse to have my super big set of dinner again. Gave my car a good wash after dinner. Took about one hour to wash my car, soaped it, wipe it, dry it, parked it nicely back to the carpark, then GOD decided to join in the wash... it wanted to give me a hand but I think the help came a bit too late... sianz... Think I should never wash my car. Everytime wash already confirm rain... sighz...
Did some security check before settling to watch some TV in the office. Been a long time since I last watch TV. Waiting for the last parade before I head to sleep again... sianz... Never mind. Tomorrow will be a better day~! I hope....
Had a rather eventful day. Woke up early in the morning to a nice thunderstorm. I was drenched before I could even reach my car. Good start to day. Have some water splashing on you early in the morning will make you wake up... haha... Reach camp just in time to take over duty from Andrew. Happily wanted to go to the canteen for breakfast then found out that ALL the canteens in camp are closed. Good. Now I am wide awake with nothing to eat. Luckily there's some leftover cakes in office. No choice. Just stuff everything inside my mouth, drank lots of water, hoping that the cake will somehow expand in my stomach and fill me up. Alright I know it doesn't work this way. Just wanna try my luck, can? haha...
Played some games on my laptop in my office until 12pm then went for lunch. The cookhouse auntie super nice. Filled up my whole plate with food... haha.. okie, the fact is that there's no one else eating, that's why she gave me everything... sighz... not bad lahz.. have the WHOLE cookhouse to myself, one auntie serving me, 4 set of television to watch and lots of tables and chairs to choose from... After lunch, straight to the bunk and sleep until 5pm. Went to cookhouse to have my super big set of dinner again. Gave my car a good wash after dinner. Took about one hour to wash my car, soaped it, wipe it, dry it, parked it nicely back to the carpark, then GOD decided to join in the wash... it wanted to give me a hand but I think the help came a bit too late... sianz... Think I should never wash my car. Everytime wash already confirm rain... sighz...
Did some security check before settling to watch some TV in the office. Been a long time since I last watch TV. Waiting for the last parade before I head to sleep again... sianz... Never mind. Tomorrow will be a better day~! I hope....
Wednesday, July 21, 2004
saD dAy...
Went for my riding practical lesson today. Everything went on well as usual. Nothing too difficult. Just keep riding round and round the circuit. The sad thing is that I failed the lesson and gotta retake the same lesson again. Sighz... Now then I realise... Riding fast is damn easy. Its riding slowly that is a big problem. I can't seem to be able to control my bike when its going slow. I am talking about moving damn slow here. The instructor said that my bike wobble a bit when I move slowly, which means that he thinks I am not proficient enough, which in turn means that he failed me~!!! Piangz... I passed all the other section leh... Gotta spend another 20 over dollars just to come back to practice how to ride slowly... sighz... such is life...
Jas is unhappy again. Its about all the visitors she have at home. Apparently they are irritating her and taking up lots of her private space. She's very frustrated. I also don't know how to appease her. Whatever I say, she also not happy. This is not a right moment to talk too much. But if I keep too quiet, she'll be unhappy again. Sighz... really don't know what to do. I was literally holding on to the phone without knowing what to say. I don't know how true izzit but I once read an article which says that to keep a healthly relationship going well, a couple should at least call each once a day, each call not lasting more than 5 min. The reason being, it has been discovered that 5 mins is sufficient for the couple to relate to each other the happenings of the day. Its is a comfortable timing to keep the conversation informative and interesting. Anything more than that, there will be less and less to talk about. And if any one of them decided to hold on to the phone and not put down, the couple will literally just be holding on to the phone and listening to each other breathe into the phone. This situation, in the long term, will cause adverse effect to the relationship. Cuz when you hold on to the phone for too long without knowing what to say, you will start to get frustrated. Then everything would turn sour and you might end up quarrelling. To a certain extend I think this article is true. But its really up to the individual attitude.
I'm going for my theory lesson tomorrow. That'll be the last theory lesson then I will be off to take my Riding Theory Test! Looking forward to that.
Jas is unhappy again. Its about all the visitors she have at home. Apparently they are irritating her and taking up lots of her private space. She's very frustrated. I also don't know how to appease her. Whatever I say, she also not happy. This is not a right moment to talk too much. But if I keep too quiet, she'll be unhappy again. Sighz... really don't know what to do. I was literally holding on to the phone without knowing what to say. I don't know how true izzit but I once read an article which says that to keep a healthly relationship going well, a couple should at least call each once a day, each call not lasting more than 5 min. The reason being, it has been discovered that 5 mins is sufficient for the couple to relate to each other the happenings of the day. Its is a comfortable timing to keep the conversation informative and interesting. Anything more than that, there will be less and less to talk about. And if any one of them decided to hold on to the phone and not put down, the couple will literally just be holding on to the phone and listening to each other breathe into the phone. This situation, in the long term, will cause adverse effect to the relationship. Cuz when you hold on to the phone for too long without knowing what to say, you will start to get frustrated. Then everything would turn sour and you might end up quarrelling. To a certain extend I think this article is true. But its really up to the individual attitude.
I'm going for my theory lesson tomorrow. That'll be the last theory lesson then I will be off to take my Riding Theory Test! Looking forward to that.
Tuesday, July 20, 2004
a dAy at tHe rAnGe....
Was at Nee Soon Range the whole of today. Gotta be Neutral Officer for some live firing stuff. Boring. Very sian.... I really hate standing there the whole day, looking at pple fire. Decided to come home to twang abit.. Tomorrow morning then go home. Gonna have a visit by some important VIP. Better sleep early so that I can present properly tomorrow... actually I also don't know what they want me to present... sighz.... react according to situation tomorrow lor.. as usual.... haha...
Been looking around for a nice bike recently. Phantom is affordable and stable but too "ah pek" liaoz.... everywhere also can see... kinda boring. There's not much sports bike for me to consider cuz I'm only getting a class 2B. Scooter is out of the question. I'm too large for the wheels.... haha... and I don't like the look. Wanted to get a Ducati but that's like the Ferrari of Bikes. And if I can ever afford a Ducati, I won't need to sell my car in the first place already.... hahaha... crapz... Just happened to notice a bike call Raptor 125 by Cagiva. That's like the BMW or Volvo of Bikes.... and its actually quite affordable! More expensive than the Phantom of course but it has a look that kills~! haha... don't know yet lahz.... Don't even know if I would really buy a bike or not.. Get the license first then say lor. Still got a long way to go.
I think I will be applying for the 2005 Intake for SIM. Currently considering the BSc Mgt and BSc Biz. That's the only 2 courses that interest me. The rest have accounting elements and that's probably gonna kill me. Still deciding. If I am really gonna study, I'll need to take 3 years no pay leave to study at my own expenses. haha... gonna be damn poor. Anyone got job lobang for me? Anything also can. SIghz... life is getting tough. So much decision to make. One wrong move will affect my whole future. No time liaoz. Can't drag anymore. Going to be 23 soon and if I really study, by the time I am done, I'm already 26! piangz....I intend to get married before 30 one lehz... like that where got enough money... hahaha... How I wish I am back in pri sch again. Don't need to think so much. Just study and play.... haha... I'm old.....
Been looking around for a nice bike recently. Phantom is affordable and stable but too "ah pek" liaoz.... everywhere also can see... kinda boring. There's not much sports bike for me to consider cuz I'm only getting a class 2B. Scooter is out of the question. I'm too large for the wheels.... haha... and I don't like the look. Wanted to get a Ducati but that's like the Ferrari of Bikes. And if I can ever afford a Ducati, I won't need to sell my car in the first place already.... hahaha... crapz... Just happened to notice a bike call Raptor 125 by Cagiva. That's like the BMW or Volvo of Bikes.... and its actually quite affordable! More expensive than the Phantom of course but it has a look that kills~! haha... don't know yet lahz.... Don't even know if I would really buy a bike or not.. Get the license first then say lor. Still got a long way to go.
I think I will be applying for the 2005 Intake for SIM. Currently considering the BSc Mgt and BSc Biz. That's the only 2 courses that interest me. The rest have accounting elements and that's probably gonna kill me. Still deciding. If I am really gonna study, I'll need to take 3 years no pay leave to study at my own expenses. haha... gonna be damn poor. Anyone got job lobang for me? Anything also can. SIghz... life is getting tough. So much decision to make. One wrong move will affect my whole future. No time liaoz. Can't drag anymore. Going to be 23 soon and if I really study, by the time I am done, I'm already 26! piangz....I intend to get married before 30 one lehz... like that where got enough money... hahaha... How I wish I am back in pri sch again. Don't need to think so much. Just study and play.... haha... I'm old.....
Saturday, July 17, 2004
saTuRdAy....
Went back to camp early in the morning as usual... Discovered that no one was back in camp... which means I could have easily "disappear".... sigh.. should have slept longer... hehe.. Anyway, had breakfast with LTA Koh. Been quite some time since I last had breakfast with him cuz he was on exercise. Went home quite early after that. About 10.40am. Waited for the new sofa to come. Quite nice. Can hold more ppl. Straighten it and you can use it as a bed... haha...
Had lunch with darling as usual. Don't know what's wrong with her today. Everything was fine until when we were about to leave my house. Don't know how it started also. Its about the helmet thingy. She was angry that I did not tell her that I bought the helmet.... which left me very puzzled. I mean come on, didn't she know that I have taken up the bike lesson? Isn't a helmet a basic essential of learning bike? So what's the big deal about getting a helmet? If she is angry because I hide something from her or don't let her know that I bought a helmet, then she got all the reason in the world to be angry. But the point now is that I did not hide anything from her. I don't find it necessary to specially inform her that I bought a helmet. Not that I disrespect her or anything. Its just that I think this is a small issue and I can easily bring it out to let her know during any casual conversation. Which is exactly what happened today! I told her about it during our casual conversation today and brought out the helmet thingy. And she got angry cuz she say I didn't tell her? I'm confused at that point! Didn't I just told her I bought a helmet? What's the problem?
I really don't know what to do. I do so much things everyday and buy so much stuffs everyday. How would I be able to remember to tell her every single thing? Does anyone has any advice at all? Do I really have to keep a log book to log down every single thing that I do? I really feel that I did not do anything wrong for this case. She was angry. I was even more angry. When I asked her what happened, she can even tell me that there's nothing wrong... just that she is being unreasonable. What am I suppose to do??? Com'on darling... I know that you are being unreasonable. Don't tell me things that I already know. Tell me things that I don't know! And for this case, the thing I don't know is why are you still angry when you know for yourself that you are being unreasonable? Why must you make an orginally beautiful weekend into a terrible one? I really do not wish to quarrel. I have no intention to make her angry. I have no intention to hide anything from her. I really hope that she will be able to assess things more effectively and decide for herself what is right and what is wrong, what is reasonable and what is unreasonable.
I really feel that its damn dumb to be quarrelling over such unreasonable things. If she wants to treat this as a big issue, then so be it. To me, there's nothing more that I can say. Gotta sleep soon. Still have to go for my Theory Lesson tomorrow. Gonna start practical lesson on Monday. So excited. Anyway I've been eyeing the Honda Phantom. If I'm really gonna get a bike, its probably gonna be a 2nd hand one. Pay everything in full then I won't have to worry about the monthly instalment anymore.
Had lunch with darling as usual. Don't know what's wrong with her today. Everything was fine until when we were about to leave my house. Don't know how it started also. Its about the helmet thingy. She was angry that I did not tell her that I bought the helmet.... which left me very puzzled. I mean come on, didn't she know that I have taken up the bike lesson? Isn't a helmet a basic essential of learning bike? So what's the big deal about getting a helmet? If she is angry because I hide something from her or don't let her know that I bought a helmet, then she got all the reason in the world to be angry. But the point now is that I did not hide anything from her. I don't find it necessary to specially inform her that I bought a helmet. Not that I disrespect her or anything. Its just that I think this is a small issue and I can easily bring it out to let her know during any casual conversation. Which is exactly what happened today! I told her about it during our casual conversation today and brought out the helmet thingy. And she got angry cuz she say I didn't tell her? I'm confused at that point! Didn't I just told her I bought a helmet? What's the problem?
I really don't know what to do. I do so much things everyday and buy so much stuffs everyday. How would I be able to remember to tell her every single thing? Does anyone has any advice at all? Do I really have to keep a log book to log down every single thing that I do? I really feel that I did not do anything wrong for this case. She was angry. I was even more angry. When I asked her what happened, she can even tell me that there's nothing wrong... just that she is being unreasonable. What am I suppose to do??? Com'on darling... I know that you are being unreasonable. Don't tell me things that I already know. Tell me things that I don't know! And for this case, the thing I don't know is why are you still angry when you know for yourself that you are being unreasonable? Why must you make an orginally beautiful weekend into a terrible one? I really do not wish to quarrel. I have no intention to make her angry. I have no intention to hide anything from her. I really hope that she will be able to assess things more effectively and decide for herself what is right and what is wrong, what is reasonable and what is unreasonable.
I really feel that its damn dumb to be quarrelling over such unreasonable things. If she wants to treat this as a big issue, then so be it. To me, there's nothing more that I can say. Gotta sleep soon. Still have to go for my Theory Lesson tomorrow. Gonna start practical lesson on Monday. So excited. Anyway I've been eyeing the Honda Phantom. If I'm really gonna get a bike, its probably gonna be a 2nd hand one. Pay everything in full then I won't have to worry about the monthly instalment anymore.
Tuesday, July 13, 2004
no title is also a title....
Told Jas about me getting a bike license. Read her blog just now and found out how unhappy she was. I hear her. I know what she meant. I know her concern. And above all I know all the danger out there. Maybe she is right. I can always choose not to get a bike or a car. Just take public transport. Much cheaper. Don't need to think so much. Just sit back, relax, sleep and enjoy the ride. All the bike and car thingy are just luxury. Partially correct. There's definitely more to it.
First let me justify why I wanna have my own transport. Let's not look specifically into bike or car. Just transport in general. The very first thing is that I am a regular. I have work to do. Very often I need to go from camp to camp for meetings, trainings and all sort of crap. Having my own transport means I can have a free play of my time. I have time under my control. I am not restricted by the uncertainty of public transport. I do not have to walk all the way from the main buildings to the main gate, then walk another long distance to proper civilisation before I can see some public transports. I do not have to wait for taxi, I do not have to wait for bus, I do not have to wait for MRT, get into one, then got stuck cuz there's some damn problem with the track. All these are precious time to me. I can do so much more things with all those time. Tested and proven. I can do so much more things within a day compare to a friend who have to take public transport all the way. Ask any working adult out there and they'll confirm with you that time is precious and we don't have all the time in the world to do things.
Having my own transport also mean that I can go anywhere I want. I won't have to worry about going back late or anything cuz I know I always have my transport to bring me home. The convenience is always there. I can send my girlfriend right to her doorstep then slowly make my way home. I can go all the way to her doorstep to pick her up for movie. I can go to her school to pick her up after lessons and send her home or go for dinner. All these within a short period of time. I really can't see myself spending 10mins to walk from my office to the main gate, another 10mins from the main gate to the MRT station, 5 mins for waiting at the station. Get on the MRT and squeeze with ppl, then spend another 45 mins travelling to town! What I used to do in 70 mins, I can do it now in less than 30 mins at normal speed. 40 mins... I would have already finished a meal and got a ticket and own my way to do shopping!
Let's talk about going back from town. 5 mins to wait for the bus, at least 50 mins to get to my gf house, 10 mins to send her home, wait another 5 mins for the bus, 20 mins to reach the MRT station, wait another 5 mins, then another 40 mins to my house's MRT station, 10mins to walk home..... 145 mins at least... I can send her to to her doorstep in 30 mins, reach home in another 30 mins. I can leave town at 10pm and still in time to reach camp, bath and sleep. Okie I think you get my point already... don't need to elaborate.
Now we come to why bike and not car. Simple reason. Can't afford to support my car anymore. 640 instalment, 300 petrol, maintenance 200, parking at least 50... all these costs excludes my hp bill, insurance and other craps... I can't disclose my pay cuz its classified but I can tell you about 3/4 of my pay is gone every month paying all these. Its not that I can't afford. But there's no room for any savings. I agree that buying a bike also mean a certain amount of cost. But compare with a car, bike is so much cheaper.
Having said all these view points of mine, I would not deny the fact that riding a bike is freaking dangerous. Especially with all the inconsiderate drivers in singapore, its even more dangerous. I don't need to be the one to screw up. I just need an asshole to lost control of his car and bang into me... that's enough to get me injured. The danger is obvious. The statistic can't be denied. I agree with what jas had said. I know she loves me and is concern about me. She just don't want anything to happen to me. She wouldn't even want to take the chance. She listed out a whole lot of disadvantages about riding and I totally agree with her... every single point. That's why I'm also in my own dilemma. Actually my concern is not so much about me having an accident and getting injured myself. I am more worried about having jas as my pillon during an accident. If there need to be an accident, I really don't wish anything to happen to jas... I can get injured for all I care but she can't. I don't allow. Which is why I told myself, as much as I can, I'll always ride alone.
Well actually all these are topics too far. I havent even got a license yet. One thing for sure. I've registered for the course and I will complete it. Whether or not I buy a bike in the end depends on my financial by then. I don't know.
My darling jas... I just want you to know this... I know you are worried about me. I can feel it. I can see it in your eyes even if you don't say it outright. You are my girl for so long, surely I can detect that strong concern in you. I know I always make decision without consulting you. That's a bad habit that I'm trying to correct. I want you to know that I have my own opinion on this issue too. Just be assured that whatever thing I do, I always have you in mind. Even if I really ride a bike in the end, I'll always have you in mind and ride safely for your sake. I know all these promises mean nothing to you now. But this is really how I feel.... I always wanted to give you comfort. I want to drive you around in a car. I want you to be proud of me. I want you to travel in comfort. But there comes a time when I can no longer afford such great luxury. So I can only settle with a small luxury.... I don't know if you understand what I said or if I even make sense in the first place... but these are true feelings....
First let me justify why I wanna have my own transport. Let's not look specifically into bike or car. Just transport in general. The very first thing is that I am a regular. I have work to do. Very often I need to go from camp to camp for meetings, trainings and all sort of crap. Having my own transport means I can have a free play of my time. I have time under my control. I am not restricted by the uncertainty of public transport. I do not have to walk all the way from the main buildings to the main gate, then walk another long distance to proper civilisation before I can see some public transports. I do not have to wait for taxi, I do not have to wait for bus, I do not have to wait for MRT, get into one, then got stuck cuz there's some damn problem with the track. All these are precious time to me. I can do so much more things with all those time. Tested and proven. I can do so much more things within a day compare to a friend who have to take public transport all the way. Ask any working adult out there and they'll confirm with you that time is precious and we don't have all the time in the world to do things.
Having my own transport also mean that I can go anywhere I want. I won't have to worry about going back late or anything cuz I know I always have my transport to bring me home. The convenience is always there. I can send my girlfriend right to her doorstep then slowly make my way home. I can go all the way to her doorstep to pick her up for movie. I can go to her school to pick her up after lessons and send her home or go for dinner. All these within a short period of time. I really can't see myself spending 10mins to walk from my office to the main gate, another 10mins from the main gate to the MRT station, 5 mins for waiting at the station. Get on the MRT and squeeze with ppl, then spend another 45 mins travelling to town! What I used to do in 70 mins, I can do it now in less than 30 mins at normal speed. 40 mins... I would have already finished a meal and got a ticket and own my way to do shopping!
Let's talk about going back from town. 5 mins to wait for the bus, at least 50 mins to get to my gf house, 10 mins to send her home, wait another 5 mins for the bus, 20 mins to reach the MRT station, wait another 5 mins, then another 40 mins to my house's MRT station, 10mins to walk home..... 145 mins at least... I can send her to to her doorstep in 30 mins, reach home in another 30 mins. I can leave town at 10pm and still in time to reach camp, bath and sleep. Okie I think you get my point already... don't need to elaborate.
Now we come to why bike and not car. Simple reason. Can't afford to support my car anymore. 640 instalment, 300 petrol, maintenance 200, parking at least 50... all these costs excludes my hp bill, insurance and other craps... I can't disclose my pay cuz its classified but I can tell you about 3/4 of my pay is gone every month paying all these. Its not that I can't afford. But there's no room for any savings. I agree that buying a bike also mean a certain amount of cost. But compare with a car, bike is so much cheaper.
Having said all these view points of mine, I would not deny the fact that riding a bike is freaking dangerous. Especially with all the inconsiderate drivers in singapore, its even more dangerous. I don't need to be the one to screw up. I just need an asshole to lost control of his car and bang into me... that's enough to get me injured. The danger is obvious. The statistic can't be denied. I agree with what jas had said. I know she loves me and is concern about me. She just don't want anything to happen to me. She wouldn't even want to take the chance. She listed out a whole lot of disadvantages about riding and I totally agree with her... every single point. That's why I'm also in my own dilemma. Actually my concern is not so much about me having an accident and getting injured myself. I am more worried about having jas as my pillon during an accident. If there need to be an accident, I really don't wish anything to happen to jas... I can get injured for all I care but she can't. I don't allow. Which is why I told myself, as much as I can, I'll always ride alone.
Well actually all these are topics too far. I havent even got a license yet. One thing for sure. I've registered for the course and I will complete it. Whether or not I buy a bike in the end depends on my financial by then. I don't know.
My darling jas... I just want you to know this... I know you are worried about me. I can feel it. I can see it in your eyes even if you don't say it outright. You are my girl for so long, surely I can detect that strong concern in you. I know I always make decision without consulting you. That's a bad habit that I'm trying to correct. I want you to know that I have my own opinion on this issue too. Just be assured that whatever thing I do, I always have you in mind. Even if I really ride a bike in the end, I'll always have you in mind and ride safely for your sake. I know all these promises mean nothing to you now. But this is really how I feel.... I always wanted to give you comfort. I want to drive you around in a car. I want you to be proud of me. I want you to travel in comfort. But there comes a time when I can no longer afford such great luxury. So I can only settle with a small luxury.... I don't know if you understand what I said or if I even make sense in the first place... but these are true feelings....
Monday, July 12, 2004
Nice poem...
Not really in the mood to key in anything but I happened to see a poem written by a friend, Dalena. She's a genius... so good in writing poems... haha... hope she don't mind me posting her poems on my blog... its really very meaningful... :
Judge me.
Judge me by the outside, it's the logical place to start.
Judge me by the outside, you can ignore my heart.
Judge me by the flesh, don't you dare view my soul.
Your eyes can't take the wonders that my inside does behold.
Judge me by the outside, you very well know you do.
Judge me by the outside, for first impressions are true.
Judge not what I say, how I act, or the things I do.
No, judge me by the outside, anything else's too hard for you.
Judge me by the outside, since beauty is skin deep.
Judge me by the outside, not the secrets I might keep.
Don't pry into my heart, my soul, my knowledge and my mind.
Judge me by the outside, others don't you dare try find.
Yes, judge me by the outside, it's what most people do.
Judge me by the outside, the way I refuse to judge you.
Go ahead.
Judge me.
Judge me by the outside, it's the logical place to start.
Judge me by the outside, you can ignore my heart.
Judge me by the flesh, don't you dare view my soul.
Your eyes can't take the wonders that my inside does behold.
Judge me by the outside, you very well know you do.
Judge me by the outside, for first impressions are true.
Judge not what I say, how I act, or the things I do.
No, judge me by the outside, anything else's too hard for you.
Judge me by the outside, since beauty is skin deep.
Judge me by the outside, not the secrets I might keep.
Don't pry into my heart, my soul, my knowledge and my mind.
Judge me by the outside, others don't you dare try find.
Yes, judge me by the outside, it's what most people do.
Judge me by the outside, the way I refuse to judge you.
Go ahead.
Monday, July 05, 2004
Sunday, July 04, 2004
weeKend wItH jAs
Did nothing much this weekend. Its the end of the month and I'm broke as usual. But never mind, pay day is coming so I'll be revived again soon. hehe... Spent weekend with Jas as usual. Watch Spider Man 2 on Friday. Not bad, though the plot is kinda expected. Well, I guess the show is not so much about the plot, the content, or anything. Its just about Spiderman. haha...
Spent Saturday swimming at home. All the usual jacuzzi thingy. Went to City Link to window shop. Haven't been there for like such a long time. Was walking up and down the whole stretch... haha... End the day with 2 bowl of Soya Bean Curd at Selegie. Its very nice~! Super smooth. Never ate such smooth beancurd before. Even the one at Geylang also not its match. Haha... Good recommendation by darling. She treated me and even bought 2 for mum and dad. Scoring brownie points again... haha... =P
Sunday... Slacking at home as usual. Told you I am broke. Bought lunch for darling and we were watching some feng shui show on tv... Kinda interesting. But I wouldn't wanna believe everything about it.. if not life would be so miserable.. everything also have to watch out... haha... Intended to swim but ended up sleeping the whole afternoon. No more money to go for dinner so darling cook dinner for me at home. Maggie mee!!! Curry flavour. My favourite... haha...
Sigh... here we go again... gonna start another week... sianz...
Spent Saturday swimming at home. All the usual jacuzzi thingy. Went to City Link to window shop. Haven't been there for like such a long time. Was walking up and down the whole stretch... haha... End the day with 2 bowl of Soya Bean Curd at Selegie. Its very nice~! Super smooth. Never ate such smooth beancurd before. Even the one at Geylang also not its match. Haha... Good recommendation by darling. She treated me and even bought 2 for mum and dad. Scoring brownie points again... haha... =P
Sunday... Slacking at home as usual. Told you I am broke. Bought lunch for darling and we were watching some feng shui show on tv... Kinda interesting. But I wouldn't wanna believe everything about it.. if not life would be so miserable.. everything also have to watch out... haha... Intended to swim but ended up sleeping the whole afternoon. No more money to go for dinner so darling cook dinner for me at home. Maggie mee!!! Curry flavour. My favourite... haha...
Sigh... here we go again... gonna start another week... sianz...
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