Many of us believe that love is forever,
that love never dies,
only to be disillusioned in the end
when we find our hands empty and our hearts longing.
We mistakenly have looked at love as a need to be fulfilled.

But love is a gift given to us.
We should not hold it in our hands for we
may never find the strength to let it go
when it decides to leave.
We should only embrace its
warmth and glow while it last and then freely
open our arms when its time to say good-bye.

When we fall in love, we don't want that feeling
to end for it is everything we are,
everything we wanted to be.
We pray that love will stay and grow in our hearts.
But if it doesn't then we should never let our lives be taken by it,
for life should not end where heartaches begin.

Lost

All is lost and there's nothing much for me to say now. There's so much on my mind but its no use typing them out here. I guess its better to keep this record a short and detail-less one so that a few years down the road, when I read back at my blog, I would not be reminded of all these unhappy moments...

A part of me is yearning to cry out loud, but I refused to let that happen... fighting back every drop of tears that tries to find its way out. I refuse to reveal the weaker side of me, even to myself. This conflict of interest between the heart and mind is torturous. I do not need any sympathy or consoling words. I am a trained counsellor myself and I know what I need to do. The world will not stop revolving just because I am sad....

And just as I was trying to move on with life... and pack myself with schedules and appointments so that I will not think too much... I saw this is my planner....
The familiar nostalgic feeling pumps up again. Tears want to flow, but I refuse...

Seriously, I do not know how to love anymore

From the bible....

Three things will last forever--faith, hope and love and the greatest of these is love.

Corinthians 13:13

* Love last forever? Doesn't it ever gets boring? *


For love is as strong as death.
...
Love flashes like fire, the brightest kind of flame.
Many waters cannot quench love, nor can rivers drown it.

Song of songs 8:6

* Yeah, you don't need water to quench it.... just hold it there for many years... long enough and it will extinguish on its own... why waste water? *

Introducing my dream bike.... The Suzuki GSX-R1300 Hayabusa... The undisputed King of the Road.... A Wonder of Speed... The World's Fastest Stock Motorcycle....

GSX-R1000 vs GSX-R1300 Hayabusa

Me and my Hayabusa....
My riding buddy...

I've posted this once and I will post it again.... Needs no translation...

And for the benefits of those young punks who drive their father's pathetic family sedan and think they owned the road, and have no fucking idea what a bike really is.... this is for your understanding... squeeze whatever you can manage into your pea brain!

CLICK HERE~!

UOL SRC - Ultimate Frisbee~!

Date: 22 Sep 2007, Saturday

Time: 8.45am (kaoz... where got ppl wake up so early on Saturday one... =P)
Venue: Tiong Bahru Park
Weather Condition: FUCKING HOT~! (that explains my sunburns now..... -__-""")
The TEAM: Lionel (Captain), Alan, Ian, SK, Gilson, Shirlene, Cindiie, Huijiao, Jing and myself~!

The team getting ready...

A group shot before we start the match~! Looking fresh and ready to win~!
After the match... everyone looking damn tired... haha... We managed to get into the quarter-finals but lost in the fight to semi-finals. I think we played pretty well considering that most of us never or hardly played frisbee.... =)

I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

Remember the good times that we had?
I let them slip away from us when things got bad
How clearly I first saw you smilin’ in the sun
Wanna feel your warmth upon me, I wanna be the one

I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

I’m so tired but I can’t sleep
Standin’ on the edge of something much too deep
It’s funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word
We are screaming inside, but we can’t be heard

But I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

I’m so afraid to love you, but more afraid to loose
Clinging to a past that doesn’t let me choose
Once there was a darkness, deep and endless night
You gave me everything you had, oh you gave me light

And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
Weep not for the memories

Busy week~

Loads of things happening and I simply have no time to updates. Let the pictures do the talking...

BMTC Passing Out Parade

BMTC 2, PTP BMT(L) 03/07 Batch Passing Out Parade.... haha... too many cameras, don't know where to look at... =P
Close-up. My very first batch of BMT recruits... probably gonna be my last too since the chances of me going back there is not high. It was a fun and memorable experience... =)

~ OC's Wedding ~

OC's wedding at Meritus Mandrian Hotel. Tasked to be a Sword Bearer.. haha... part and parcel of being in this line. This is my 4th time already... Its always very tedious and tiring because of all the preparation and rehearsal before the actual thing but its worth the effort when you see the overall effect. Typical Chinese Wedding Dinners are too normal. With the sword bearers marching in and forming the Arch of Swords, the effect is very different and add grandeur to the occasion... =)
OC and his wife walking down the red carpet... haha... I think the bubble effect provided by the hotel is kinda cool... different from the usual smoke effect...
The bubbles are so tempting that Nur and Terence wanna be part of it too.... hahaha....

Singapore Big Bike Festival 2007
This year's Big Bike Fest is much more interesting than last year's. For a start, the convoy ride was well organised and at least it happened. They canceled last year's Convoy cuz of the stupid international event at Suntec.... The ride was fun and it was one of the highlights..
The bikes from Super 4 group forming up at Kallang Mac.
Before moving off.. a group pic of some of the riders...

Getting ready to move off...
The Vespa group also getting ready to move...
On the way there... Can you see me??? hehehe.... =P
Forming up before entering Suntec with great fanfare~
And finally, here we are.... At Suntec City...

The most unexpected person I met during the SBBF~! My boss during my previous attachment CPT Liang.... you can call him MR Dylan now... haha... He quited his good paying job in the Army and venture into his own business. He set up a shop with 2 of his friends and they specialized in air brushing of cars, bikes, helmets etc... What's air brush? Look at the bike in the pic and you should know what it is... I'm glad that CPT Liang is enjoying what he is doing now and I wish him all the best for his venture. Goodluck~!

Some crazy way people dress up their busas... Not my cup of tea... haha...
And we have some pretty models to add colours to the bikes =)
And we have the professional stuntman, Ryan from Vertical Mischief... Yes, that is Temasek Blvd~! I guess he will be the one and only guy in the whole world to be able to do such stunts on that road... haha...
This guy is serious.....
Who says only cars can do "Donuts"...
Parting shots... notice the Superman T-shirts that all of us were wearing... It was sponsored by DC Comics, the shop at Suntec which sells T-shirts on Superman, Batman, Spiderman etc... =P


The Arrival of the Monster...
Finally after years of waiting, I finally got my monster...
Collecting at Mah Pte Ltd...
GSX-R1300 Hayabusa and GSX-R1000
Finally, Andrew don't have to wait for me anymore.... =)

BBQ with the buddies~

Had our almost annual BBQ session with the usual buddies. This time round Ian and Sharon can't join us cuz Ian is flying and Sharon has some duties at work... But a few Invites were given out and we have a few new faces joining us this time round. In attendance were:

1. ME~
2. Andrew
3. Chin Lee
4. Howe
5. Alvin Teo
6. Suresh
7. Lawrence
8. Edmund
9. Paul (Edmund's UK friend)
10. Nicolas (Edmund's UK friend)
11. Jas
12. Elaine
13. Chuiling
14. Anne
15. Martin

We were having a damn fun time as usual and it was really great catching up with all the friends once again...

Martin and me...
Chuiling and Andrew...
Andrew, Howe and Anne...
Paul, Nic, Edmund and Chin Lee....
Suresh and me...
Elaine and Jas...
The amount of alcohol they brought was ridiculous (this was part of it)~! We are having BBQ, not clubbing leh~! hahaha.... But we still managed to finish everything... =P
Chef of the day~! Chin Lee was doing 90% of the cooking... seems like he is having so much fun... I did my part too! By eating the things he cooks so as to ensure no wastage of food.... hahaha...
The guys....
The ladies....
Me, Howe, Alvin Teo and Andrew...
Lawrence doing his part to make up for coming late....=P
Preparing to get drunk....
And Andrew got the first King's cup.... hahaha... a mixture of chivas, jim bean, baileys and a few other kinds of alcohol which I forgot.... yucks~!

Want more photos? Check it out here: http://s47.photobucket.com/albums/f175/alvin176/BBQ%202007/

As usual, we can't hang around at my place for too long cuz the irritating security guard will keep coming to bug us to keep quiet. Eventually, we gotta move away cuz some bugger call the police to complain that we were making too much noise.... =P
The day would have been great if not because I was shouted at for no reason. We were supposed to clear the place, so it is normal that I throw away the stuffs that we no longer need. So what's wrong with me throwing away the ice? Clear the table, throw away the paper cups, plates and fork, throw away the uneaten food, throw away the ice, arrange the table and bring back the rest of the things we want.... isn't that the normal thing? What's wrong with that? And I just gotta be screamed at for throwing the ice away! Don't we have enough ice? I still have 2 big bags sitting in the fucking fridge and whoever wants it can be my guest and take it.
I fucking hate this feeling of being taken for granted, always being scolded for no fucking reason. I keep my cool and back off every time because I find no need to quarrel over small issues and jeopardize the r/s. Maybe that's why I am asking for it? Cuz whatever happens, I'll always be the easiest person to be lashed at? -___-""""